Trusting in Him
Corey Fox
The year of 2011 started off as the worst year ever and ended as the best.
Our son was officially diagnosed with Autism. Something we had known for a
while but hearing it from medical professionals is difficult. That summer our
marriage began to crumble. I had a friend that reached out to me and asked
me to church. I thought I was going for my children and quickly learned God
had me there for myself. Our daughter MacKenzie quickly fell in love with
the Lord and was baptized and I was so proud. Still not realizing how much
God had in store to win me over to Him.
By August our marriage was at rock
bottom, and divorce was in our near future. I begged and pleaded for our
marriage thinking that I could fix it. I realized it was out of my control and
turned to God. I began to immerse myself in my Bible and reading God’s word.
I started to fast and pray over my husband’s belongings, and found myself not
praying for our marriage but praying that a Godly man would sit in his chair,
wear his uniform, lay on his side of bed, ect. I fasted as I did this as it was
what the Bible led me to do. I knew if my marriage crumbled my children still
need both of us in our next life. God saved me while I was praying to save my
husband.
I still would not release full control to God even though I kept hearing
Give your burdens to the LORD, and He will take care of you. He will not permit
the godly to slip and fall (NLT Psalms 55:22). My flesh still wanted to hold full
control but finally on October 2nd I fell to my knees and told God “I hear you God
and this is yours I will worry no longer.” I fell asleep with a peace that only God
could give me. At 4:45am that morning of Oct. 3rd I awoke right up and within
a few minutes my doorbell rang. There stood an officer that I did not know and
every law enforcement wife’s nightmare was coming true. He said he was there
to pick me up that my husband had been involved in a wreck and had been
life flighted.
When I arrived at the hospital my husband began to apologize
and was saved. He knew from his wreck he was only alive by the grace of God.
When you turn it over to God be ready for what he has in store. God has won
our whole family over to Him, and our marriage is now stronger then ever.